The Mystery Guest

A personal story of awakening, confusion, and learning discernment

Everything here comes from my own personal experience. I am not asking anyone to believe what I believe. I simply wanted to share part of my journey in case something within it helps someone else feel a little less alone.

Take what resonates and leave the rest right where it is.

When I first awoke in 2007, I had no idea how deeply my life was about to change.

At the time, I had been studying a healing modality that involved using a pendulum. I had worked with a pendulum for many years and never had any problems with it.

However, before this, I had always been working with my subconscious mind. This time, I was working with angels, and that felt like a completely different path.

Within a few days, I suddenly realized I no longer needed the pendulum. Instead, I began hearing responses directly from my own guides.

I knew very little about angels or spirit guides. I had experiences with them, but didn’t understand it and had nobody to explain what I was experiencing.

My guides explained a lot about how the world works in a way that I could understand and that felt right in my heart.
They showed me many ways of spirit communication and various ways to heal myself and others.

They showed me how my thoughts were affecting everything.

I was fascinated. A whole new world was opening up for me.

For several weeks they taught me and I would try things and see what worked for me. Virtually everything they taught was for me.

Now, I understand that not every spiritual tool or message is universal, some guidance is deeply personal, and people awaken differently.

Still, I knew nothing about spirit communication, except what I saw in the movies and that was not very soothing.

I would work long hours, because I was so interested. I never felt tired. However, I was not getting enough sleep and was giving out more than I was taking in.

Looking back, I learned that opening spiritually without balance can leave you overwhelmed.

I later realized that exhaustion and fear were affecting me far more than I understood at the time.

I began to notice that the conversations were being hijacked by something I knew was not my guides.

At first it was subtle. A tone that felt different. A feeling in my body that did not match the loving guidance I had become used to. Confusion slowly became fear because I did not yet understand discernment or energetic boundaries.

I did not know what to do. My guides gave me a protocol, so I would know when it was them, but it seemed that I would just “forget” at the time the mystery guest arrived.

I became so afraid that I shut down my gift, to feel safe. For a long time, I believed safety meant closing the door completely.

Looking back, I feel this was all intentional, so I would know what that is like and be able to help others that are just waking up now.

My brother woke up a little after me, but he thought he was crazy. He told me a woman would knock at his door and tell him it was time to wake up. I tried to help him understand.

He said:
“what if they tell me to burn the house down?”

“Don’t do it”, I said.

I told him that his guides and angels are always loving and any messages that are not loving are not coming from them.

It was just too difficult for him to understand, so he sought psychological help.

And so, even though it made me a little sad, it helped me.

Watching my brother struggle helped me understand that not everyone experiences these things the same way, and not everyone is meant to navigate them in the same way.

Sometimes the best I can do is listen, share my experience if it helps, and respect the path someone chooses for themselves.

It took me over a decade before I began to open back up because of the fear. Once I began to remember my own personal power, I didn’t feel like a victim anymore and realized I wasn’t in any danger.

Whether it was my own fear taking form, an energetic experience, or something else entirely, I eventually realized that fear itself was what gave The Mystery Guest power in my life.

I hear my guidance every day now. Not like before, yet, but getting more open every day. And the fear? That is gone, because I understand how it happened and I know what to do if it ever happens again. 💖💖💖