June 23rd, 2018

The Journey

My Spirit - The Journey

Pierre Teilhard de Chardin (1881-1955) said ‘We are not human beings having a spiritual experience; we are spiritual beings having a human experience’. This truth, did not really become my truth until 2007.
As I walk along life’s path, my perceptions are constantly changing, depending on my vantage point. What I believe changes, too, over time. What I believe today, will be quite similar to what I believe tomorrow, but may be quite different from what I believe a year from now. My journey seems to be a dance, appearing to move forward, then back, then left, then right, then turning around and moving forward, again, a kind of spiritual waltz.

We are never moving backward on our path. It only appears as if we are, at times. Edward Albee wrote in ‘The Zoo Story’: ‘sometimes it’s necessary to go a long distance out of the way in order to come back a short distance correctly’. That is what it feels like, sometimes, but we are never going out of our way. There is value in every single step of our journey.


 Spiritual Awakening

Heaven Sent-Love Is All There Is

It has been an amazing journey. For many years, I was seeking spiritual answers. Why was I here? Did I have a purpose? Was there life elsewhere? Were there other dimensions and beings, blending with our own? Did I have spiritual guides? All of the answers were already within me, having been quashed down, as a young child. When I did get answers, I felt like the answers were not coming to me, because I already ‘knew’ that. The spiritual answers were just flowing in at a rate that I was allowing. The more I felt I wasn’t getting answers, the more I wasn’t getting answers. The Universe just answered THAT request. It is the law of attraction.

In 2007, I was attuned to Reiki and had a ‘soul clearing‘, all in the same week. This had a profound effect on me. I re-awakened, as if out of a deep slumber. I became more aware than I can recall ever being in this lifetime. Suddenly, I had access to all kinds of information and answers! I became aware that I am not alone, nor have I ever been alone. I began having conversations with these beings that I understood to be my high self and guides. My guides are with me, ever moment of every day, just as yours are with you. That was a little bit weird, getting used to. There is no privacy, but there is no need of it, either, as there is no judgement, only love. They helped to open my eyes to the truth of who I really am and taught me many wonderful things.

At first, it was really fun and exciting. Then, I felt a little like a nu-bee swimmer, going into deep water with heavy clothes on. Not very easy to swim with all that extra weight, pulling you down, especially when you are just learning to swim. I began second guessing myself(and my sanity). I thought ‘it couldn’t be this easy’. I must be making this up, or it is just my ego, or subconscious, etc… I even picked up some lower vibration thought-form, at one point. That is when the desire for assistance became white hot.

I wanted very much to find a “real” spiritual teacher who could give me some clarity on what I was experiencing! But, where do you find a teacher like that? I began searching on the internet. I found one that I thought might be able to assist me. I asked my guides if the class would be of help to me and I received a ‘No’ answer, which I promptly ignored, because the teacher assured me that this class was in alignment with my highest path and purpose. Always listen to your own guidance… It wasn’t that this was not a good teacher, just not the one for me. Later that year, I stumbled across the teachings of Abraham-Hicks, for the umpteenth time. This time, I paid attention. Because these teachings echoed so closely what my own guides had told me, I became more confident. It took some time to become comfortable, again, but the clarity is there and every day the connection is more open. With what looked like backward steps that actually lead to huge spurts of growth, my journey has been a re-awakening adventure!